Thoughts – How Do We Fix – Revitalize – Heal – Downtown…

Recently I attended a meeting about the need to turn to arts, community, entrepreneurs , and local business owners, for the means of changing, healing, revitalizing, and creating a “new” downtown. Those of you who were born here have seen it change.

I am now 30 years old – for much of my 20s, I lived downtown. For two years, I was on the corner of 10th and Central and frequented the local night life on foot. I drank, had fun, and walked home. Since then, I’ve moved out of downtown and own a home I could afford…

I visit downtown to this day, but not nearly as much, or enough – In fact, as an employee of what I feel was one of the coolest venues we’ve had in my 30 years of life – as an Albuquerque native – I found myself downtown on a daily basis, last year – that is until – the state decided they didn’t like innovation and envelope pushing – fair enough – I again left downtown.

I digress – when asked what downtown needs – I said quite frankly, bluntly, and with all due respect to the very esteemed and attentive host of our meeting: “We can bring any idea, plan, or venue to downtown, we can talk all we want about innovating, changing, and bettering the space we are discussing. The fact of the matter is, there are “destination” venues in this area, because people don’t just “come” or “go” downtown anymore – if you’d like my honest opinion as to why – it is the police presence – if I were from another city and drove up for a night out, on what appeared to be a crime scene – I wouldn’t stop either. We can keep the cops, but put the cars in a lot, have them walk and protect and serve on the street, and remove the presence that they currently have.”

I must say that our host – and the hosting body of this meeting met my comments with an open ear, with concern, understanding, and an interest to speak about the matter further. I said “at face value, I am what APD doesn’t like down there – young brown and tattooed…” I am however, a good person, and a contributing member of society – and although not everyone at all hours is that, downtown – I think we need to treat folks with a humane nature, and less militarized approach – if we get rid of some of the tension that flashing lights, crime tape, barricades, and horses create – we might be surprised by the amount of incidents that simply, don’t happen…

Those were my two cents today – and I have to say, I felt heard, understood, and agreed with, by the lot of the folks at this literal “round table.” That felt good – perhaps we are getting somewhere Albuquerque – I was your young brown tattooed entrepreneurial representative today – and we were listened to. It is days like this, after nights like last night, that I do believe this city, even with the problems it has – has a chance. Let’s change things… whatya say?

Finding…

Headed to find something.
when?
every, day.
Never been
so good at searching and sometimes
that leaves me working, pretty hard,
but without complaint.

I’ll be the first to tell you
it’s just simple math.
There’s a job to be done
hours in the day
a minute, to work.

Find myself working more
often than not,
with family and friends
finding themselves without me and
still –

searching – I go.
for what?

For this –
for life – for the ability to send out a
personal search party for my dreams
and not be called crazy when I’m still
stuck in the woods –

we instead, exist here together, my friends.
I’ve found you  – those

who get it…

Those that understand, these hands were made
to write – and this brain is full of ideas
so simple, we can all find something when we
search.

Through these words – 

and my presence
and your ears
and our hearts – I find myself not feeling like
i need any more material –

I can write my way through this situation and
find myself out on the other end.

The jig is up –

I’m no writer.

I’m a liver
a lover
poet
artist
human being
freak
friend

enemy
heretic
priest

prophet, without many to speak for –

profits that is…

That’s not this.
See this thing

That I am still finding…

I’ve figured out – it found me long ago.

So don’t worry,
everything is going to be just, fine.

It Sure Has Been A While…

Wow,

Sorry to leave you for so long, my friends. It just dawned on me that I might have new readers and friends, followers, and people who deserve something way more up to date. I have updated my CV and Bio on this site – and will begin to add again to it, on a regular basis. I am trying to find time these days, for everything. Those of you who know me, know I am doing quite a bit of freelance, and other marketing and advertising things, to make sure the bills are paid – and that still, in their own way, make me super grateful and appreciative of those opportunities for work! I am lucky is what I am saying – just busy! But that is no excuse.

I am back!

Where Have I been?
If you were wondering:

Boston played host to me recently. Lawrence High School, Lawrence Boys and Girls Club, Northern Essex Community College, and CDCPS, all opened their doors to me. Performances were had, workshops were fruitful, and the time and work, so very appreciated.

Where Am I Going?
If you are wondering:

Thursday and Friday October 30th and 31st ALL DAY – I will head South to Las Cruces, NM – Centennial High and Las Cruces High will have space and time for me, for two days worth of workshops and performances.

Sunday November 9th 4pm-7pm, Come on down to Tractor Brewing Wells Park and catch, “I’LL Drink To That,” Bring What You Can Edition – a variety show I host, monthly. This month, bring a non-perishable food item, so we can help to feed the less fortunate.

Wednesday Nov12th – Saturday Nov15th, ALL DAY – I will be headed to a Kellogg convening and hopefully be sharing great ideas, experiences, and new inspirations from the conference itself. These are always greatly appreciated experiences.

And then we are on to The Holidays as they would say, my friends – and I am sure there will be things then, but until then, I just wanted to say thanks for sticking around, and remember all the fun we’ve had – so dig around on this blog and find something you like, until I can offer up something new for all of you!

Thanks!

C

Inspired ~ Energized ~ Ready for MORE!

My Friends,

It is from the Tamaya Resort, in Bernalillo, New Mexico along side more than two dozen former and current Kellogg Fellows, that I write this. I have now been part of a convening that has brought some of the most powerful people together in one space, and somehow I have been included. I am humbled, honored, and blown away. 

Today, I shared a story about an object that has pushed me, and reminds me, why we work to improve the lives of children in our communities. I was raised fortunate, and blessed, I was raised with few wants and needs; I grew up with a mother and father that loved me, and although I was confused at times by the way I was raised, by the man who raised us. It is for my father and mother that I realize my place in this world is to serve folks in communities, that are looking for something. For those that are missing something, for those that feel like there is a piece that they can’t find, but they are still willing to search, I exist. I don’t have the answers, I don’t have the direction, but like my mother and father, I have a heart, I have hands, and an ear, a shoulder and time. I have all I need to show folks in our community that I care – I will never stop caring – and with the presence of such powerful people around me, energizing and encouraging my belief in what we are creating for Albuquerque, I am ready to do work. 

I never quit working friends; it isn’t a big deal – it is life and a responsibility – one I whole heartedly and readily accept, and now with the blessings of Kellogg – with the creation of such an amazingly powerful group of people that I know I can call on, all I can say, is we are going to make Albuquerque better, everyone ~ and it’s not just the two dozen of us – it is everyone. We are here, to hear and feel what you want and need in all communities that run through our veins, that exist in our hearts – we are here – we will serve – I am ready. If you need me, please call and let’s get to work. 

Best

Carlos C 

Under The Big Top – NEW POEM

I was working on this and now it is done. The title has changed – enjoy. I am going to upload the sound cloud soon if you’d like to hear the “scratch/memorization” track . 

 

There’s a locomotive in my chest
barreling down the tracks,
these hands,
tap at keys quicker than a few
things in the west
and the typewriter trapped between
my ears, sings these things, here.

Here,
I don’t mind.
I’ve… grown quite used to growing through
a microphone,
things don’t always come out right on the
other end.

But,
That doesn’t always make things difficult.

Often,
interesting…

In this circus
who’s for the clowns?
some people
paid for the show, and the rest of us
will clean up when everyone leaves.

You see ~
This steel stuck, tons worth, of a track riding beast,
gone one way crazy, train, in my chest
doesn’t necessarily have a destination.
one, direction –
forward.

And often the interim finds me tapping
at the keys ~
finds me,
finding… New reasons
to breathe and bear the weight of whatever
the world wants me to juggle, because
we all came here for a show. Some of us paid, many will
clean up when it’s over; sometimes, we find ourselves
as part of the act.

A dramatization not to be played up,
bearing down on the two-sided nature
of each and every encounter –
are we the lion or the tamer,
the bear or the bike –
sturdy or topsy-turvy,
under this big top we call Life…

Let me find you in the ring,
fire and hoops,
megaphone and suit and we are all
ready for what you have to say.
We are all here for a show ~
All paid a little bit to be here, yes, some
more than others, nothing spent on anything
less than this experience. When this is all over
we take with us what we brought and clean up
after the calamity that found us
alive.
Welcome, may we please have your
ticket
grab
a

seat.

Poetry, Journalism, Activism, Humanism

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